Ronda Rousey: I Thought About 'Killing Myself' After Loss
LOS ANGELES (CBSNewYork/AP) -- Ronda Rousey says she had dark thoughts including suicide after she lost her bantamweight title to Holly Holm in Australia last year, her first defeat since joining UFC.
"Honestly, my thought in the medical room, I was sitting in the corner and was like, `What am I anymore if I'm not this?"' an emotional Rousey said Tuesday during an appearance on "The Ellen DeGeneres Show." "Literally sitting there thinking about killing myself. In that exact second, I'm like: `I'm nothing. What do I do anymore? No one gives a s*** about me anymore without this."
Rousey told DeGeneres that her relationship with UFC heavyweight Travis Browne helped get her through.
"I looked up and saw my man, Travis, was standing there," Rousey said. "I'm looking up at him and was just like: `I need to have his babies. I need to stay alive."'
Rousey said that she was knocked out on her feet the first time Holm hit her.
"I really don't remember most of it," she said.
Rousey won her first 12 mixed martial arts fights -- eight of them in less than a minute -- before stepping into the cage against Holm in Melbourne last November. Holm finished her off with a devastating kick to the head.
"It's always crazy going into every fight," Rousey said. "It's always so much chaos, so much going on. Things weren't perfect, they never are. The one thing that was different was it was my third title fight in nine months. I don't think anyone has even attempted that before. I don't make any excuses or anything like that. I've fought in worse conditions, but I think one thing that was different was I felt tired -- but I've been more tired."
Rousey told DeGeneres that she wants to be the one to beat Holm, who will make her first title defense against Miesha Tate in Las Vegas next month.
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