"I feel that my heart is broken": Latino community living in fear after El Paso shooting
El Paso, Texas — While public displays of mourning continue outside the Walmart in El Paso, some of the toughest conversations are happening inside Latino households. In a house about 10 minutes from where the attack happened, an organization called Border Network for Human Rights is hosting what in Spanish is called a "charla," or a chat, giving a chance for people to talk about how they are feeling.
Dulce Carlos is leading the conversation with multiple generations of El Paso residents, including Mexican immigrants.
"I feel that my heart is broken," said Guillermo Adame through a translator.
Adame has lived in El Paso for 50 years. He was on his way to the Walmart the morning of the largest terrorist attack on Latinos in modern history.
"This individual, he didn't know us," Adame said.
"I'm scared ... for my children and my grandkids and all of us. I'm scared," said Ermelinda Blanco in Spanish.
The whole room raised their hands when asked if they feel actual fear about what happened — and they all said they have never felt this way before.
One woman said her daughter was watching and asking what was happening, but she "didn't know how to explain it to her."
The conversation also turned to President Trump.
"He has been poisoning so many people with what he has been saying and targeting us Latinos when all we do is work," said Epifania Castro in Spanish.
Walking out of that meeting, it was quite stunning really to feel that fear. You're talking to a group of people who feel that they could be a target because of nothing else other than the color of their skin, their immigration status, who they are. You really got a sense of how palpable the fear is now. Those were really powerful, really sad, words to hear.
For now, this community leans on each other.
